Abandon

Costa Rica you left me by the poolside

You took a ride

On a motorbike with a stranger

That you never met til that night

You never loved me much

Now you’re somewhere fading up in the heavens

And you’re barely standing with your

Arms and your legs and your feet and your eyes

You know you drive your black bmw up some country road up some ocean side drive

You don’t miss me and I don’t miss you

And I hate you and it's been ten years since i've seen you

But i'm coping with the aloneness and the abandon and the loneliness

That I can't ride or die or hide away from

You never loved me much

Ten years and I’m facing my fears and

I can’t believe that you’re never even here around me anymore

You’re just some apparition some ephemeral little vision in my brain in my eyes behind my skull there you go

You’re some flashing light out the window

I can’t feel you around me anymore

Goodbye

You never loved me much

Lose You

Call it fate

Don’t wanna fuck this up

Keep your eyes on me

Until I come undone

I wanna know you again

Before you change your mind

Don’t tell me it’s over

I want you one more time

Before I lose you

Take me home

And pull the curtains down

It’s a shame we won’t

Ever come around

I wanna see you again

Before you change your mind

Don’t tell me it’s over

I want you one more time

Before I lose you

Now my head is such a mess

An empty bed is all I have left

Now my head is such a mess

An empty bed is all I have left

I want you one more time

Before I lose you

I want you one more time

Before I lose you

Backyard

You are a vision apparition
In my cold heart

The space before and after

I was torn apart

The imperfect condition

Of the same scar

There’s no escaping who you are

I am you and you are me

In the dark

The fading light is in between

Empty passenger seats

Your reflection of me

Is what I couldn’t see

In my own backyard

It's been long enough to know

That you’re not missing

You’re always there when I resist

Forgiveness

Comes in waves

I cannot break the rhythm

There’s no escaping who you are

I am you and you are me

In the dark

The fading light is in between

Empty passenger seats

Your reflection of me

Is what I couldn’t see

In my own backyard

I can’t weave a silver lining

Fence the feelings I’ve been fighting

I’m still waiting out this fire

There’s no escaping who you are

I am you and you are me

In the dark

The fading light is in between

Empty passenger seats

Your reflection of me

Is what I couldn’t see

In my own backyard

Head in the Clouds

I’ve been running

From my paranoia

And you begged for more

Good intentions

You say I’m defensive but I

Can’t touch the floor

And you said

Get up off the couch you’re too proud

With your head in the clouds

Every action speaks loud

So shut your mouth

But you don’t know how

With your head in the clouds

Would you believe me

If I knew the feeling

Of a sudden change

And I’m terrified like you

The whole world’s turning blue

But I will wait

Yeah I can stay

And you said

Get up off the couch you’re too proud

With your head in the clouds

Every action speaks loud

So shut your mouth

But you don’t know how

With your head in the clouds

Someday you’ll live in the moment

Someday

Don’t you keep second guessing

Don’t you

And you cried

Get up off the couch you’re too proud

With your head in the clouds

Every action speaks loud

So shut your mouth

But you don’t know how

With your head in the clouds

Drown

A crowded arena feels like an empty room

I took you for granted and then you left too soon

And every year that goes by

I just sit alone and cry

Oh I cry

I won’t shut the feelings down

I’ll break the barriers

I’ll make a wall of sound

And I’ll drown you out

I won’t push the weight around

I’ll break the barriers

I’ll make a wall of sound

And I’ll drown you out

You’re in my ears yeah you’re in my head

And then you reappear in a dream above my bed

And every year that goes by

I just sit alone and cry

Oh I cry

I won’t shut the feelings down

I’ll break the barriers

I’ll make a wall of sound

And I’ll drown you out

I won’t push the weight around

I’ll break the barriers

I’ll make a wall of sound

And I’ll drown you out

You were colder than

The bottom

Of the deep blue

Did you believe in me?

I won’t shut the feelings down

I’ll break the barriers

I’ll make a wall of sound

And I’ll drown you out

I won’t push the weight around

I’ll break the barriers

I’ll make a wall of sound

And I’ll drown you out

Skeletons

I was standing in your bedroom

TV blares and you got high

You were lonely like your mother

Swear you gave it your best try

I’ve always wanted to feel seen

By someone who could hardly love

That kinda love’s a pipedream

Skeletons in my bed they show me

Everything that you said was empty

And you left me for dead and lonely

And it hurts like hell can’t you tell

Skeletons in my bed

You were nothing but a stranger

Walking through revolving doors

I was starving for a glimpse

From someone I used to adore

I’ve always wanted to feel seen

By someone who could hardly love

That kinda love’s a pipedream

Skeletons in my bed they show me

Everything that you said was empty

And you left me for dead and lonely

And it hurts like hell can’t you tell

Skeletons in my bed

(I was standing in your bedroom

TV blares and you got high

You were lonely like your mother

Swear you gave it your best try)

Hello for the First Time

What's it gonna take

To love you

Every single day

We’re in separate rooms

Divided like a wave

In a tributary

We use could a break

From the city

Sometimes

I wish I could say hello for the first time

In the suburbs we will stay all winter

We don’t mind the gray of december

We can hibernate

In our second hand clothes

Crawl into the cave

Of your parents’ home

Sometimes

I wish I could say hello for the first time

(ooh)

I wish I could say hello for the first time

These Days

Another rainy day

We could stay inside

Or we could run and hide

Forever

No I don’t wanna wait

For a sign of life

I feel like I could die

Whatever

I’m so bored

I’m depressed

I’m a mess

These days

I’m so bored

I’m depressed

I’m a mess

These days

Staring at a wall

I hear a silent hum

I’m shaking and I’m numb

Forgotten

No I don’t wanna fall

I wanna have some fun

Before my days are gone

And broken but

I’m so bored

I’m depressed

I’m a mess

These days

I’m so bored

I’m depressed

I’m a mess

These days

Last Regret

Change

I’m no good at making changes

Sometimes you have to rearrange all of your back pages

Now you’re ashamed

Ashamed of the time you wasted

Crying silent when the light was shining brightly on your face

And on the hood of your car in the parking lot

You went wild

Understood all the stars when you killed the lights

You’ve been hanging by
A thread of your last regret

You’ve been hanging by

Why

Why would you stop and think twice

About the dust stuck in your lungs

You settled for a fire

Now it's time

Time to face all of your lies

And wash away the acid rain that plagued you from the inside

And on the hood of your car in the parking lot

You went wild

Understood all the stars when you killed the lights

You’ve been hanging by
A thread of your last regret

You’ve been hanging by

You’ve been hanging by
A thread of your last regret

You’ve been hanging by

In the Flowers

All of the days

Inside your room
With one window

In the shade

You watch the clouds

They’re gone by noon

The weeping willows

Going south

You move with the wind

Shed your skin

In the flowers

You can bloom again

You move with the wind

Wave your hands

In the flowers

You can bloom again

Shake off the dust

From years ago

Brooklyn, New York

Had enough

All of your friends

They let you go

Cause the seasons

Always end

You move with the wind

Shed your skin

In the flowers

You can bloom again

You move with the wind

Wave your hands

In the flowers

You can bloom again

In the flowers

Shut Up and Kiss Me

You and I were a movie

That I never wanted to end

Young adult fiction

You were more than just a friend

Playing all my records

While I was somewhere on the road

Wanting you forever you were softer

Than the New York snow

You’re my dream lover

And I don’t wanna fall asleep

Underneath the covers you said

Shut up and kiss me

When I look in the mirror

I see a boy forever changed

And we both know for the better

We won’t waste time again

Playing all my records

While I was somewhere on the road

Wanting you forever you were softer

Than the New York snow

You’re my dream lover

And I don’t wanna fall asleep

Underneath the covers you said

Shut up and kiss me